New Goal

I updated my goal section over there ----->

Date I met Goal #1, and added Goal #2.

I feel rejuvenated with this. I know I'll do this, it will take a while, and will take many mini-goals, and there will be many ups and many downs, a few gains (not many), and a lot of loses, but in the end.... I know that I'm finding me again :)

Woo hoo, did it! I'm under 220!!! I weighed in today at 219.5 pounds!! I've gotten rid of 30.5 pounds. I can't believe it. When I went in to weight myself this morning I told my husband, wish me luck, I need to get rid of .5 pounds to hit a loss of 30. I came back out and told him I hadn't lost 1/2 pound, he was sympathetic till I told him I'd lost 1 pound! Yeah!!

I'm so glad to be past this plateau and moving on to the next mini-goal. I think I'll make it 40 lbs, just stay with the tens. I don't know if I want to set that for the end of July, last time I did that I didn't succeed. I think 6 weeks would be good. That would be August 13th (when we go camping) to have gotten rid of 40 lbs total. Can I do it? I think I can. I am only 20lbs from being half way there!!!! So this new goal would get me to 210 lbs. It's been A LONG time since I've been at 210. This is going to be great! :)

Up and Down and Up and Down

I guess my "getting back on track" yesterday really helped. I weighed in today at... 224.5 lbs. I'm happy :)

My son will be two in October. That's in a little under 5 months from now. I'd like to lose another 20-25 pounds by then. Perhaps I could be under 200 by then, how cool would that be? I'm trying NOT to set unrealistic goals. 20 pounds in 5 months is completely do-able. It's tight, but it's do-able. There is no room for error. So what do I do? Do I go ahead and set the goal knowing that there is always a chance I won't hit it? or do I set a more "padded" goal of 25 pounds by Christmas? Goals are hard. I have one right now. I wanted to lose an additional 10 lbs by the end of May (this started the middle of April). That would bring me to 221 lbs. I think I can still do it (except for the big Memorial Day weekend at the end! ). Isn't part of what I'm try to change in myself the ability to forgive myself if I don't meet my goals? I am afraid. I'm afraid I won't meet my goals, and I'll spiral out of control. What am I gaining by giving myself "padded" goals? Just an excuse not to meet them right? Right. No more excuses. I'm going to put my goals up on a side bar here and stick to them. I may hit them, I may not. But that's where I'm going to need to grow and learn to even lose the weight in the long run. So here goes...

Goal #1: 221 lbs by May 31st
Goal #2: 200 lbs by October 14th

What are your goals? Weight loss, work, anything...